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Name: john
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Metro: Greensboro
Gender: Male
Interests: apple computers, frisbee golf, ultimate, real golf, mountain biking on the street, baseball cards, basketball and local history
Expertise: making eggs in the am
Occupation: Consulting
Industry: Legal
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Member Since:
3/14/2005
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| Tomorrow Emily and I are devoting our day to our yard and Luke's
nursery. He is now 28 weeks. Our son will be here before we know it. As
for the yard, another son has entered the family. His name is Echo. He
is a bran spanking new weed eater. He came home from the Homedepot last
night. Tonight he will drink his first bottle of formula (gas/oil mix).
Enough of the stupid parallel. It's time to wack attack!
Tomorrow Emily and I will fellowship together through working. We
love doing stuff like this. The girls are going to Nana's and we will
hopefully accomplish what we usually cannot because the girls are here.
Take the vacuum (that spelling does not look right) cleaner, it is so
loud that it scares them to death. I need to get one of those non gas
powered vacuum cleaners. Regardless, the girls freak out when we pull
that sucker - ha out of the closet. They also follow us around and want
to do what we do - which is adorable. We are tremendously blessed
to have a home and a yard and I personally have the best wife and
children a man could ever dream to have. My wife is my prize!
Good night Stella, Good night Ava, Good night Em, Good night Luke, and Good night Echo.
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| hmmmm can I explain this in words?
I was using the bathroom and noticed something weird on the towel
hanging from the back of the door. It was a tiny silver heart.
When I say tiny I mean the size of a remote control button. I didn't
pay much attention to it but did wonder where the heck that came
from. From that random observation and a good flush, my day
continued.
Em is out of town and I've been the caretaker of the girls. By the way
I miss Em - by 8:00pm it is super lonely because this is our chill out
time together. Anyway, I've been looking after the sweet girls.
Changing diapers, cuddling, feeding them... you name it. I actually
like the Mr. Mom role. Oh yeå and dressing them. We have all these cute
outfits but it is a losing game for me to attempt matching their pants
and shirts.
This afternoon I put on a pair of pants on Ava and I saw something that
really shocked me. Her pants were decorated at the bottom with tiny
silver hearts except there was one missing. What a coincidence... or
was it? What I have not explained about the day is I've been really
struggling with feeling depressed. When life does not often work as I
want it to (via my control) then it seems like I am not okay... or
there is an unmet need in me. I am looking to other things to meet the
very deep longings of my heart. AND AT THAT MOMENT... God spoke to me -
"John your heart belongs to Me... it is in other places now... like...
in ministry." Just like that little heart that strayed away from Ava's
pants so I have misplaced my heart. The thing is I know where my heart
belongs.... just like seeing that indention in the pants where the
heart was so there is an indention in Christ where my heart belongs. I
am united with Christ 2 Cor something? Set your heart on things above
Col. 3:3... I am full of grace in Christ Eph. 1:6... I smile at the
little reminder that Christ meets my deepest longing. That my heart and
identity is in Christ as it was always inteded to be.
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| We are having a little boy!!!!! We think we will name him David Kody Freeman but not sure yet. YES!
see someof you on the ski trip,
jf
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| "Here come the Tar Heels... the first lead of teh day. Miami could be
in trouble. Noel takes teh opportunity to drive down the lane -
score for the tarheels. The way this team play is reminscient to other
Carolina teams. Wes Miller's foot work is amazing. Oh 3 second
violation on Miami and timeout. Caroina enjoying their first lead of
the day. We'll be right back after these messages."
OKAY - i am real bored except for watching the UNC basketball game.
ACTUALLY i am bored on purpose. Yes this the purpose driven life -
chapter 41 "Bored on Purpose" just kidding about the chapter but no
kidding about intentionally wasting time. My life can be so scheduled
and effecient that I wouldn't give monopoly the time of day because it
takes too long! Passing the time with brainless activity is healthy - I
think. Sure I coming from a work a holic mentality and the couch potato
may need some encouraging but for me I need to sit at the feet of the
couch potato...maybe in a bean bag:)
I want to waste with my wife, children and friends. I hope to
speand time alone and stare out my window and watch my neighbors grass
grow.... grass is popping under his straw!
Other news:
Emily and I find out if we are having a boy or a girl on WEd.
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The girls always want to go outside. It is a word they have mastered
that speaks of their desire "outside, outside, outside." I wonder what
is going on in their little head when they become so set on going out
doors. Maybe they like the adventure or the open space. Maybe they like
going down those big huge steps from our porch or walking through the
enormous bushes out front. Or maybe they like riding in that 1000 foot
machine called the Honda. Everything is huge to them and life is so
exciting. There is a world out there with big, fun stuff to go through,
climb on and conquer. I wish there was a word that mixed fun and
adventure. I would use this word for them maybe... fadture, advunture
or fenture.
I learn from the girls and am challenged to head outside and not only
face the big things in life but to climb on them with a playfulness and
joy. I am learning that Christ is my life and wants to express His life
through me. This is an adventure and its fun. Maybe my prayer can
be.... "outside."
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